Passion & Trust

I recently came across a poem that I wrote a few years ago and I speaks magnitudes about what so many times I feel and I'm sure we all go through in life.

Why Me?

Why Me, God?!

Why Me?

Why did You have chose me

As a representative of Your Kingdom

I'm nothing special

I've done nothing great

Why have I been chosen?

What makes You think

that I can fulfill whatever You command?

I haven't lived Your "Perfect" Life

I haven't drank Your "Perfect" Wine

I don't live in Your "Perfect" Mansion

I didn't ask

I didn't beg

I didn't audition

I didn't sign up

I didn't

I didn't

But You did

You adopted me

You took away the pain

And hurt from before

And made me feel loved

And made me feel wanted

You made me Your Little Princess

Oh I can remember the cornation

I may have not been the best

but I know that I have received

the best reward

I have fallen and tripped

Repeatedly

But You still come to my rescue

But You still come to my aid and my cries

I have said You name in Vanity

And cursed loudly to others

I have lost my temper

And done things I have know You would

Disapprove

But You still come and cradle me

When I am running back to You

You are still right there where I left You

On the trail of Life and Love

My Earthly father's love had diminished

and my earthly mother's love will

slowly die away

But Yours will forever be there

Forever be at the request

Forever be at my longing

Why me?

Why did it have to be me?

Why am I chosen for this task?

Why can't I be tossed to the side line?

Why me?

As I write that I out again, I think about many different times since I have written it that have probably come into my life which I have questioned so many times and been scared and not completely trusted God. That's a big thing that I can say do trust in God but I really have to put it into practice.